Dale- while your poetic images fill books of poetry. (I hope I wasn’ rude,wasn’t my intention). You may see Humor in what those images meant to me. I married a rancher/farmer. So Leaf- meant I had to work harder and faster. Cram other chores into morning so afternoon was spent raking until just before dark,which comes earlier. Preparing for winter,survival of our livestock-that paid the bills. Snowflake-for me was surviving even more physical pain until Summer came again. I’d throw a party for last Flake of the year. The last 2 winters I haven’t been up north and have done much better. Spring for many yrs had me in the unheated barns. Midwife to sheep and lambs. Calfing out Hiefers. Spending alot of anniversaries in barns with new babies. I did those things until I couldn’t do them anymore. The only season I always embraced was Summer. Plenty of work there too. I raised a huge veggie garden,canned and froze. Until I couldn’t and our son was old enough to take my place. I mowed down all the hay while rest of them raked it, stacked and baled it.
I did read all the links you posted. I think I understand now. I will go and find the entire book to read. I thought after that long 4 day trip north was over. So was the worst of it. NML is here and brought plenty of problems and triggers with it. I am holding my own,a day at a time. For 1st time ever. I am grateful I live 10 m from town!!!!! I absolutely do not keep tobacco on the place. I learned that lesson in the past. I spend as much time as I can everyday at the site.
Appreciate all you do for other Quitters.
Since I smoked my entire adult life. I really don’t remember what it was like as a no smoker when a kid. This is all new turf for me. It’s Scary! Prairie 44 dof
