Keep trying.. Don't give up. April 6th was my 1st day w/o a cig., and I almost smoked one today. My husband still smokes too, though only once in front of me in the last 3 days. I think it's a lot harder with another smoker in the house because cigarettes are readily available. I keep thinking "no one will know if I sneak just a puff", but I will know. That's the addiction, the nocodemons. Don't call yourself an idiot.. I'm proud of you for cutting way down, and I give you a pat on the back too. I wish you the best and if you need to type to keep your hands busy, you can always chat with me!! Holler if u need to. Good Luck.