And this little gem pops up on Facebook this morning
Hence my insistence on keeping a journal or writing blogs....... they teach you so much about yourself.
smoking 8/21/2012
I have four more packs of cigarettes left and I'm quitting.......... not because I want to, because I have to. My eyesight is being affected. And either I smoke or I go blind....... so the choice I make is not to smoke. I've been smoking for 40 some years and it's come down to this. I started smoking when I was 16 and I'm now 53. Do the math. Smoking has been my life, my everyday wake-up call. This is my milestone in life. I never knew what to do without a cigarette. I've always had one. So this will be my blog when I quit in about two and half days...... so bear with me people. I need support and my rantings will probably be a little irate, but it will help me and you can track my success..... I have to do this because I want to see my grandbaby and future great grandbabies...... how much inspiration do we need, right?
3/19/13
wow, in August I typed the above....... I've got four more packs of cigarettes and we're going cold turkey. They say it only takes 3 days for the nicotine to get out of your system. I need to do it that way to feel the waves of craving, to remember how this has taken over my life. I lay down to sleep to only wheeze myself to sleep. I had a father that had emphysemaand died of bladder cancer. I had a mother who died of lymphoma. I had a paternal aunt who had breast cancer. I had a maternal uncle who died of prostate cancer. Wake up call. I was brought up as a very strict Catholic. Went to mass every day for 5 years (back then it was in Latin). I sometimes wonder if this is God's reminder of the evils of the world. Enjoyable things that can kill you, i.e. alcohol, smoking, drugs. It just makes you think sometimes why we do the things we do sometimes.......... So bear with me, my friends. There will be ramblings, rants and carry ons in the future week or so. But I need to try to do this cold turkey to only experience what this terrible addiction has done to me to not make me want to go back...........
4/18/13
Well, tomorrow is the day. Not spending $6.55 a pack and not spending $61 or so for a carton any longer. Going to try the e-cig for awhile and then we'll be tobacco free. I've got V2 e-cigs here and really like them. Just have to stick with it for the last time. Actually kind of excited for this. I'm sure I'll feel a hellofa lot better........ wish me luck!!!
Fast forward to 1/25/2016 when the switch was flipped. This is proof to those just starting out, we all were where you all are today at one time. Just trust in the process. Stay close. Get as much education as you possibly can. Learn about nicotine and the powers that be. It's not the cigarette that binds you; it's what they put in them that does.......
