Shelly, you can do this! I know its easy to think that having one will make everything feel better but it wont. Its not worth it now to go back. Try to keep thinking about all the reasons why you dont like smoking and take some deep breaths to get you through the hard times. I used to think that smoking relieved my stress at work, now I think that smoking is what caused the stress! One day at a time, it will get easier!