4 days and counting

[hardtoquit]

Was so tied to the few cigs a day. Life revolved around it and it truly seemed i wouldnt let it go, ever. Everyone crossed to the other side but for me.

Had drinks with a friend who reminds me of my mother sometimes(who left us yrs ago) Something clicked in what my friend said. how we related that night. 

I simply went home and it was done. Over. The stop for loosies at the bodega on the way home- done. The walking around my streets the next morning to bum one or buy a pack- didnt need it.  I hadnt set a new date. it just arrived on its own.

Im not jonesing in the studio really. All is the same but without the gross cancer pull. 

Before teaching 1/2cig- absent. The after class 1/2 cig caput.  Each threshold passed is starting a new habit of possibility.

I will get tense and will pass someone smoking and hope i can stay strong. Wanting to on the inside but staying strong on the outside- this is true bravery. NOPE.

This community is amazing- all of you out there are amazingly supportive and loving. Virtual yet real.

Each new day is a blessing. 

[indingrl]

Welcome and WAY TO GO

[elvan]

Five days now...right?  When you see someone with a cigarette, tell yourself that you are much better off because YOU don't NEED to smoke...they DO.  Keep going, you are doing GREAT and it really will get easier.

Ellen

[hardtoquit]

Thanks Ellen! Good advice.

Night.

[Ronwv]

Last night I went to a local bar for a benefit dinner/raffle. While I was there eating and watching all the drinking and smoking and the dippers doing there thing.

I actually felt pretty good not even wanting any of those items.  But,I do admit on my way home. It felt like I was having a panic attack.

So,I did the best thing I could think of was I took a nrt mint,took a long hot shower and went to bed early.

I woke up feeling refreshed and almost back to my old self.guess,the lesson I learned is I am not ready to go out where the triggers and cravings are.I need the alone time for a bit so I can build a stronger fight plan.

I got on here this morning made my daily pledge and read some quit stories.

[SimplySheri]

Great job at protecting your quit!!!  You should be very proud of yourself    And sharing may help someone else as well so thank you for that.  Have a great day  

Sheri

[Barbscloud]

You did great.  Many need to avoid certain situations early on.   Whatever it takes!

Barb

[hardtoquit]

I can see how that would be really hard Ronwv.  I've just passed into my second week.  The only trigger I've not encountered is

friends smoking.  Most people I know don't smoke, but I've a close out-of-town friend who does.  I'm worried about being with her

and feel I'm probably not ready.  

I'm glad for you that you made it through - there are so many things to give us calm and pleasure which you realized, even if it's getting 

out and safely under those covers!

Onward, Happy Sunday.

Cathy