Today is a happy day darn it! I've been smoke free for 38 days today. I've been on my pity potty just moping around. I get home from work and lay down and watch television all night. I sleep the weekend away. I have no interest in doing anything at all. Sometimes I don't even want to leave the office because there's nothing to look forward to when I get home. (I used to sit on my beautiful deck and have a wonderful glass of red wine with my smokes, before I start dinner). Not anymore. It's the depression I experience ever time I quit. For those of you who don't know me, I've quit many times (one time for four years!) It's like there is simply no more enjoyment in life. I can't enjoy a glass of wine because it is my number one trigger -- alcohol. I've learned that lesson more than once. I'm far from an alcoholic, but I do enjoy going out and having a few drinks on occasion (in addition to my glass or two of red when I get home). I haven't had a drink since my quit date of May 1, 2017. BLAH, BLAH, BLAH...
BUT NOT THIS TIME!!!!! No, no, no. This time I'm going to do something different. I refuse to go down the same road. What's that famous saying by Einstein? "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result?" Well, insanity no more my friends. I've decided to get off my couch and get my lazy butt moving. This weekend I'm going to start living an active lifestyle. I used to enjoy hiking, biking and kayaking and I do none of it anymore. Everybody says that one of the best things for depression is getting outside and exercising. Spring and sprung and there is no better time than now to start this challenge.
I'm looking for fellow Ex'ers to join me in my activity challenge. I'm calling it the "Let's Get Moving" Challenge because I hate the word exercise. Not only do I hate the word, I hate actually exercising. LOL. But really, all joking aside, I really do hate it. But, I know it's the best thing for me. I don't want to fail again. I will fail if I don't try something different to get me out of this funk.
So, I challenge all of you to join me. I'm going to try to "get moving" at least 4 times a week. I'll stay accountable to all of you, which in turn will make me accountable to myself. I promise to post my accomplishments and I welcome you to do the same. Now that it should be easier for us to breathe, whadda-ya-say? Do you want to take this journey with me? Any activity counts, as long as you get off your butt and get your heart pumping. Who knows, maybe we'll lose a little weight or a couple of inches in the meantime.
Wednesday at 4 pm hope that don't cut into your other stuff. How fun can't wait for our date. What lose weight? you didn't look like you needed to lose weight to me when we met. Yeah those forbiddens tend to jump in my hand at times. I have lots to lose but know I will get there as these moving challenges motivate me and I know it takes time like taking time to get use to not smoking.
