Jen39 I am proud to be your friend. I know how hard it can be to watch someone you love with all your heart just withering away. My father is in a nursing home with Alzheimer's. The good thing is he has forgotten that he smoked 2 packs a day, but I have watched a man I knew to be 6 foot 3inches and 260lbs wither to a man who stoops over at about 5'1" and only weighs 156 pounds. You can do this and, as I have found, there are alot of people on this site who are willing to help in anyway they can. Keep up the great work, before long maybe you and I will forget what it was like having to depend on those cig too.