Lee76 Did I congratulate you on your progress Lee. I remember that holidays were tough for you - is that still the case? Or perhaps this one tomorrow doesn't cause you grief. How's the communication with Pops going? I don't know if you remember but I am the lady that called you in the middle of the night several months back because you were despondent. We made a plan for how to handle these stress that led to severe depression. Do you have someone to call? If not, revisit the idea of finding and calling for support.