Erin13 Day 9: Getting back to work = wanting a cigarette!!! I was THIS close to buying cigarettes or begging a friend for some weed, anything to inhale and get away from my dire state. I am desperate. Help me. Yet I did not beg for a cigarette. I sat at my desk working through lunch chewing on celery and cursing under my breath every minute of the day. I'm tired. I'm fed up. I hate my job...if not for the much needed paycheck I'd rather give-up. Give me a cigarette or just KILL ME!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!! I hate not having them AND I hate wanting them. I don't know where to go...I'm so confused. All I know is I wouldn't dare step foot in a store that will have cigarettes right now. IT would be the end of me.
