Welcome to EX...recovery from this addiction is one day at a time and there is no way to hurry it up. It's a roller coaster of emotions at the beginning but it does get better. I suggest you come here every morning and every evening and any time in between when you feel tempted. Remember that no crave ever killed anyone but no one can say that about smoking. You absolutely CAN do this and you do not have to do it alone.
Ellen