Okay, so the urge hits. This is a medium one. It can be hard to describe. Is it a hunger, a wanting? And how close does it bring me to breaking down and smoking? More than yesterday? Less?
So I ask myself these questions, and I realize the very worst urge has yet to be that bad. If I had a choice between one urge, and one shot in the gums at the dentist to deliver Novocaine, I would pick the urge in a minute. So what makes quitting so hard?
Tomorrow makes quitting hard.
When the dentist comes at me with that needle, I know it will be over it one minute.
But when I have my urge, my desire, I foolishly ask myself :
When will this end?
Will I feel this way tomorrow?
Will it be worse?
How long can I hold out?
Really, 30 days?
60?
Can I really hold out?
So my struggle is not with the "Nicotine free rushes", it is with my fears and doubts. I need to enjoy the fact I am smoke free today! The rest will take care of itself!
Greg
Greg-
You're doing such an amazing job! I used to think that there was no way that I would make it a week, a month, 2 months, etc. We have all been there. Remember the reasons that you are doing this and they will pull you through the rough moments.
Rachel