Today is the first day I have thought of smoking a cigarette - I have so many dam problems that came up last night, I am literally losing my mind. I'm having problems with my teenager and found a snap chat account, that we her parents did not approve of, had a friend help me break in the snap chat and was horrified at the conversations going on in that account.
Well I gave my kid enough rope to hang herself and she did, she will never have the opportunity to have a smart phone from us ever again.
I was almost to the point of going to get cigarettes and I came straight home from the gym and cried because I thought I was coping just fine and getting through all triggers until this crap happened last night.
I'm so depressed with everything right now.
Be depressed about everything ELSE, but rejoice that you are QUIT! Obviously I'm teasing. But I've found that when all hell is breaking loose around me, my quit is the one steady, sure, rock that I can cling to. I know it doesn't feel that way in the beginning, but trust me, if you keep hanging in, you will find that your quit is the one thing that you DO have control over. It becomes your strength, rather than your weakness. It becomes your empowerment.
A phrase that helps me get through the tough life time is: "What am I to learn from this experience?" It take our attitudes and turns them 180 degrees. Rather than playing the victim we open ourselves to more awareness and more change. For I believe we are spirits here to learn, grow and develop. There are reasons why we go through what we go through. And if we can discover the reasons, it makes the journey easier.
Hang in. Just - hang in - no matter what!