Today is the first day I have thought of smoking a cigarette - I have so many dam problems that came up last night, I am literally losing my mind. I'm having problems with my teenager and found a snap chat account, that we her parents did not approve of, had a friend help me break in the snap chat and was horrified at the conversations going on in that account.
Well I gave my kid enough rope to hang herself and she did, she will never have the opportunity to have a smart phone from us ever again.
I was almost to the point of going to get cigarettes and I came straight home from the gym and cried because I thought I was coping just fine and getting through all triggers until this crap happened last night.
I'm so depressed with everything right now.