So the site seems to have changed a lot since I was last here. I can't find any of my old blog posts. I've been quit since July of 2010 and had at least 20 posts but they're all gone now. I came here to give an update on my Dad. He was diagnosed with lung cancer last fall. Things aren't going well.
So it’s been a few months since my last post. I was still holding out hope after my Dad’s latest scans that I would have some kind of good news or at least positive progress to share, and unfortunately, that’s not the case. We’ve watched him go through 6 rounds of chemo, drop weight drastically, lose all of his appetite, all of his hair, and become a shadow of his former self.
The cancer has not only not gone into remission, it has metastasized to his brain. The last scan in December did not show this development so it’s moving more rapidly now. Statistically, the doctor has told him with radiation he has 6 months to a year. Without, from 3-6 months. I can’t even find anything online that offers that much time but I’m hoping we have at least that.
He’s only 66. I’m only 33. He shouldn’t be dying this young and I shouldn’t be losing my father this young.
Please stop smoking. Stop before you do this to yourselves, or to your family members. I can’t describe to you what these months of anticipatory grief, knowing we’re going to lose him soon, has done to my family. My mom is about to be by herself for the first time in her life. I can’t even begin to fathom what life without him is going to be like, but all too soon I’m going to have to experience just that.
I’m going to do what I can to enjoy what time I have left with him.
Please stop smoking.