I am going to be vulnerable here. I know I need to stay in the moment, and take it one day at a time. When a thought creeps in, repeatedly, I feel the need to face it. I am afraid. I have been in mostly guarded, unstressful circumstances since Monday, when I quit smoking. What about when I am around someone smoking? When, inevitably, I am around people drinking? I am not drinking and hope to let that addiction go as well. When I am stressed? When the love of my life, Luka, my 12 1/2 year old German Shepherd can no longer stand on those wobbly three legs of his, and I have to put him down? When my kids go through challenges and when I feel so shaky?
Am I whining here? I hope not. I am just voicing my fears. Experience will help me be more courageous. Time will give me strength. Do I trust myself? Honesty, not completely.
I do know that I have all of you and this site to support me and I will continue to come back and build my self confidence.
Lauralives because I chose to live without smoking!!