Ali, the thing that kept me going is having people out there that knew I quit, smokers and non smokers who would check on me. Whether they were supporting me or just waiting for me to slip I felt accountable....
I got to the point where I realized whatever was wrong, a cigarette would not change anything about my situation but it would make me feel worse so I looked elsewhere to feel better. Something to distract me until it passed even if it was just filling up on water.
You have to be on your guard so triggers that do hit, you do not fall for them. Like at gas station, as some of the old timers have said as the year passes you will do things for the first time without a cigarette, so you have to prepare yourself for that. Or I did and still do..
If all else fails deep breathe like you are smoking a cigarette it is actually a better high because it is all you...
Be proud for how far you have come!!! Your statement on how you get it this time around should give you some peace...