I`ve often thought of just coming out of the smoky closet and telling my mom that I smoke, knowing the disapproval and disappointment that she will have in me, just so I wont feel like I have this dirty little secret looming over me. Ive often thought well if I tell her im trying to quit, then maybe I can get some support from her instead of doing this all by myself. But then again, Ive brought this on myself, and I dont really smoke with anyone else close to me (except my partner--- but thats a different story) when I started smoking, I would only smoke in my car. alone. just me, my car, and my cigarettes. So i feel thats the way it should end. Need to relearn driving my car without a cig in my hand.
Maybe other folks might have a different opinion here but I just know the guilt trip that would be laid upon me by my family if they ever knew I started smoking. and I choose not to deal with it, but to deal with the cravings and withdrawal alone, with the help of you kind strangers over the internet on this site, and with this nicorette gum that actually tastes very good. (LOL)
Sara
