Sorry for my sudden absence

Discussion created by andrew3 on Feb 13, 2009
Latest reply on Feb 14, 2009 by michele2
Well I don't know if that many people noticed my sudden lack of posts and blogs. I know a couple did and I thank you very much for your concern. I have been swamped with work, and school. I have been stressed to the max, and was drained of all energy. When I had free time I did not feel like coming here to write. I didn't feel like talking to my girlfriend. I just wanted to sit and watch T.V. I did not want to do anything the past three days.

This morning I feel much better. I was able to sleep in till 10-10:30. I think my batteries had run empty, and was making me depressed. Now I feel much more alive, awake, and happy. I feel positive and like my old self when I came to this site first.

I had a dream last night I was smoking a cigarette. I had half the cig in my dream then threw it away, and then felt so happy. I don't know if the dream meant something, I think the cigarette was the stress and depression, and I was feeding off it for the past couple of days. When I threw away the cig I threw away the problems.

Anyways today is beautiful, and I am thankful I made it past the couple of weeks I am back, and will not go away again for long periods, well that's a lie, but I will not be as upset again. I will make one month, and six months, and a year. I will not fall I cannot fall, this is my last chance.