Hi everyone,
I quit again on June 19th and started smoking again on June 26th. I can't even count how many times I've quit in the past before, during, and after getting pregnant in 2005. I really want to do this but I'm really struggling. My husband is a smoker and usually somewhere between a week to a month of not smoking I get very very very very resentful toward him and then I start going through horrible withdrawl symptoms - even on nicotine replacement. I know that it is wrong but the addiction monster just won't let up. I never pressure him to quit smoking. He knows he needs to but like the rest of us he has an addiction. So eventually I give in to my addiction and tell myself that I deserve to smoke - I work hard too - why should he have all the fun! That is so ridiculous but it happens every time.
I don't want my son to think that it is ok to smoke. I'm so afraid that when he turns 9 or 10 he's going to "try" a cigarette. How do you explain to a child that it is wrong for him but ok for his parent? I don't want him to ever go through the nicotine withdrawls and the cycle of quitting.
I'm tired of this cycle but I don't know how to break it............
