Hi Jessica, just to let you know I am in the same boat. I am older than you, have smoked for 37 years. I have tried to quit numerous times before. I don't think I had the right attitude. I was waiting around for my husband to quit with me, and I used to fact that he wasn't ready to allow me to slip back into my smoking ways. Now it has gotten to the point where my health issues make it necessary for me to quit, no matter what he does. I think for a long time I felt deep down that we would leave this world together. Crazy, but that was the thought. Now I realize that I could have a stroke or heart attack at any time, as could he. The other person would be left to deal with the world on his/her own terms. I can't protect him, he can't protect me. In my fifties I'm learning to stand on my own two feet. We are each responsible for what we put into our bodies.
