Hi all... let me intoduce myself

Discussion created by denverdeb on Apr 10, 2008
Latest reply on Apr 16, 2008 by becca5
HI ALL! My name is Deb and I live in Colorado. I have been smoking for 17 years - about 3/4 of a pack a day. I am married (hubby is quitting too) and have3 small kids that I want to see get married someday. I also have a 72 y/o dad with emphasema and on oxygen, so I decided it is finally time to break free of this evil addiction. I am on chantix and noticed that it does help incredibly with cravings and also I have cut down to about 7 cigs a day so far which is really encouraging. However, I am terrified of my April 14 quite date because even though I am cutting down, I can still say to myself that I can have one 'later." Once Monday comes, there will be no "later" and I don't know how I will handle it.
I don't know myself as a non-smoker, I don't know who I am . does anyone else struggle with the "never again" concept. I know I should take it one day at a time, but I can't stop thinking about things like, "what will I do camping this summer? " Will I still be freaking out and feeling like crap? Can I ever have a beer again? What about those awesome sunny days where I sit on my porch with a cig? AAARRGGHHH... I hope for my kids sake and my family that I can do this. Glad to be here though, and glad for the support.