Counting sleep time, I made not smoking 14 hours. I got up and did other things rather than my daily smoking routine. I am getting a new routine in place. Then pretty much just sat and cried. I finally got myself focused on a project. I don't like the withdrawals. I am half way through Allen Cars book and finding it extremely interesting. He says keep smoking while reading and then when done with the book make a decision. I think I will make a favorable choice and quit smoking. I KNOW by slowly quitting I am prolonging the inevitable and yes I am making excuses. I don't want or need lectures at this time. His writing hits right at home about fear, losing my best friend, not being able to live without a cigarette. I am finally getting a new perspective as to why I smoke and is a cigarette really the friend I think it is. Pretty cool. I can and will quit smoking. My new quit date is January 1, 2021.