I am not sure I am posting this correctly. My Aunt died. She was like a second mom to me. So not really identifying my pain, I chose cigarettes. I am not going to beat myself up. I have my signs I printed and I bought me dum dum suckers. I have to do activities other than sitting and smoking. I didn't make it out of the barn, so to speak, but I am saddled up and ready to go again. I will make it.