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This is a tough day for me not to smoke, but I’m hanging on. It’s day 6 and since I’ve been a little moody and antsy, I got into a huge fight with my 15 year old son. I’m just really upset and this would normally be a day where I woke up and smoked a lot. I’m not doing that and I’m not going to do that but my cravings are very sting right now. I guess it’s just a bad day and I’m learning to get through them without cigarettes.
"this would normally be a day where I woke up and smoked a lot." But instead, this is going to be a day where you don't. Where you continue to learn what your new normal is. Where, when you hit the sack tonight, you can look forward to celebrating your first smoke-free week tomorrow! Teenagers can be a real pain, can't they! (Psssst.... don't forget your sense of humor. It's a great help!)
Hang in there, practice breathing...
Julie your doing GOOD 
It is tough, it you are doing so good and making this quit yours. My 17 year old upset me and I wanted to smoke sooooo bad, but I wasn’t letting him get the best of me with my quit. Stay strong momma!!!
PLEASE remember that you had bad days when you smoked too...AND think about what smoking would have done for that anger. I can tell you that anger was my biggest trigger, I would light up and puff away like a crazy person puff, puff, puff...all the while envisioning the target of my anger incinerating or at the very least, falling over. How ridiculous was that? Here I am over 6 1/2 years smoke free and I realize that it took quite a while for me to accept that it is okay to get angry, it is okay to feel sad, it is okay to FEEL, it is NOT okay to smoke. The damage that I have done to myself is horrible and I have to live with it...just because I could not handle allowing myself to FEEL.
Hang in there, it will get easier.
Ellen
Congrats on day 6! Good choice to come here and vent rather than smoking. And tomorrow is a new day - where you'll be smoke free for a week!
That's a big success. Be proud!
Barb
Great job walking the walk to smobriety, Juliejules! Getting through triggers (no matter how important they seem) is the work of quitting and you are doing it. Sometimes, anyone of us can think that we ought to be tougher of better than this. Uh, no, it's an addiction and leaving it behind is tough work at times. High five. Yes you can.
Hang tough Fam, we got your back.
I just want to say please hang in there every day you don’t smoke is a good day I had three years without smoking and 10 years before that and I blew it recently this summer but I had quit on September 14 again and I had a Lotta good days and now Smoking again UGG I hate it I picked this Monday as my new quit date I have a teenage son to who’s driving and I Worry about him every night I’m so proud of you for days without smoking I’m just picking myself up and starting over again I don’t want to be a smoker I really don’t
So I’m out here reading everybody’s posts and finding my inspiration best of luck to you you can do it
Hello again congratulations on all your days without smoking I am so very happy for you I know you can do it I haven’t done very well at all lately and I stopped reading everybody’s comments because I was smoking and felt bad but I picked a New quit date this Monday, October 5 and I’m doing everything to prepare so I don’t mess up again I feel so guilty about smoking makes me want to smoke As long as we don’t give up trying we’re not failing and I really really really really really don’t want to be A smoker again
We can do this I know we can reading your comments and your struggles really gives me hope
I know I don’t know you in person but your posts have given me the most hope
I know there’s a lot of people with a lot of time out there that haven’t smoked I was one of them but now I I’m back struggling
I really appreciate everybody’s comments but it’s nice to read someone who’s going through the same struggles as me
Please don’t take that the wrong way I don’t want you to struggle Just feels Nice to have someone who like to Be struggling with quitting
A lot of the comments I was getting on my posts Felt like people forgot how hard it is early on
I really really appreciate your posts
Best of luck to you
Madeleine0622 I really hope that you understand that probably no one here has forgotten how hard the beginning is. I know that I haven't and I came to this site every morning and every evening to read blogs and comments, to ask for advice. That was over 6 1/2 years ago and I will NEVER forget it, this site was literally my life line. Two things stuck out for me...one was NOPE, Not One Puff Ever and the constant reassurance from elders that it would get easier. It DID, but it took time and work, it took my commitment to staying quit, to following the advice I was given. I saw lots of people come and go and whenever anyone lost their quit, it put doubt in my mind. I think that most of the elders want you to know that it CAN be done, not that it is easy but that it is possible.
We all want you to succeed.
Ellen
Thank you so much for reaching out to me
i really appreciate it I am so afraid to try again I have quit for so many times for so long I even had 10 years once I can’t believe I am back to this awful place again
I don’t know why I keep going back to it when something really bad happens I want to quit for life I feel like a drug addict
i hate smoking
I have been so blessed in my life but this addiction has taken such a toll on my happiness I hate it thank you so much again
Madeleine0622 I am so sorry that you are struggling the way you are, it is very familiar. I lost count of all of the quits I lost, I always tried again but until I found EX and I really paid attention to what I was being told and the strength and compassion I felt from the people here...I don't know if I could have been successful, despite the fact that my breathing was becoming more and more labored.
You said:
I don’t know why I keep going back to it when something really bad happens I want to quit for life I feel like a drug addict
You ARE a drug addict. We are ALL drug addicts, addicted to a power drug called nicotine. We have to learn to live our lives without it. You CAN do this, you have proven it in your past history. It really DOES get easier. One day at a time and sometimes, one FEELING at a time. You are not alone on this journey. It was what saved my journey and likely, my life. Stay close to the site, call out, cry out, if you need help. We all want you to succeed.
Ellen
Thank you so much Ellen for reaching out to me
I do really feel like A drug addict
I have so many things in my life I am so grateful for nobody at work nobody in my family knows what I’m struggling with and how bad I feel
No one in my family none of my friends and nobody at work even knows I’m struggling with this I am embarrassed and ashamed
I don’t think anyone would ever understand on the outside I seem like I got to get everything going for me
There is isn’t any anybody I know that I feel like I can confide in
I feel like everybody would judge I honestly feel like a failure Because I started smoking again
You come here ANY TIME, we ALL know what you are going through. We all had to go through it too and SOME of us were slow learners and had to go through it over and over again. I hate to admit that I am one of those.
Ellen
Thank you so much for getting back to me and thank you for thinking of me I don’t know if my last response went to you or not I’ve been having a tough time trying to get my texts to go through I really appreciate all your support I have responded a couple times I have no idea if they went through or not I do appreciate everything please keep me in your prayers tomorrow I do good during the week and then I mess up almost every weekend I know How good my life can be without smoking thank you so much for sharing and reaching out to me I really appreciate your support and for anybody else that I’ve reached out to me I’ve tried to respond everybody but I’ve been in having aVery tough time getting my responses When I try to hit send thank you everybody I promise I’ll keep reaching out everybody sleep good and have a great night
I will be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers tomorrow. I am not an early riser so you might not feel the energy coming in your direction until later. I don't know why your messages are not going through, I did get one from you a couple of hours ago. Stay close, we are here. If you keep having trouble, contact Mark and he can likely lead you through any issues.
Ellen
Thank you so much for getting back to me I appreciate everybody’s prayers and thoughts today is the first day of my new life I’m excited and I’m excited to have everybody here to help me so nice to know I have people to reach out to and share my experiences with and to reach out to when my triggers start to come up I plan on using this app anytime I Experience One of my triggers
Hi! Today is my third or fourth Day One, can't remember. Stay strong! We got this! I have a 17 year old son who a few times has pushed me during a quit. I try to remember THIS IS MY QUIT and NO ONE CAN STEAL IT FROM ME. It works and then I decide to romance a smoke and cave. So that is what I am trying to work on this time around. Reach out if you need anything. I am here for you!
Thank you so much ‘Jenn for reaching out to me today is my third day number one this time around but I feel really good and really positive this time
Saw a beautiful rainbow this morning it was actually a double rainbow it inspired me
I just meditated for 15 minutes during my lunch hour that always seems to relax me I am remembering this is my quit nobody else’s good luck to both of us we got this please reach out if you need anything and I will too thank you again so much
I understand how you feel associating with someone experiencing the same. As Ellen said, we haven't forgotten how hard it was to quit--that's why many of us are still here. We want to keep that way.
Not giving up is the key to success. Keep moving forward.
Barb
Thank you for replying to me and thinking of me I do really appreciate your support I am in a really bad place I had 10 years and then three years and they were wonderful I am hurting so bad I am back in this spot again
It's understandable how you're feeling, but as you know all to well, we can't change the past. It's not all bad--think of all the cigarettes you didn't smoke in 13 years and that can only be a good thing. Wish I could say that--this has been my only successful quit in 50 years. Remember it's a powerful addiction and you're not alone.
Stay close the site--it works.
Barb
Thank you so much Barb for getting back to me I really appreciate it and I am so happy for so many people I knew that Have quit smoking tomorrow is my day and I’m getting ready I really can’t wait I am so sick of this disgusting awful habit I just wish I could stop beating myself up I can’t believe I went back through it again it really sucks I will stay close to the site I’m going to try to read it every day I never wanna feel this bad again I think the thing that hurts the most is that I was successful for so long and I just feel like I blew it Now I’m feeling the pain all over again I don’t want to smoke I hate it so bad thank you again for reaching out to me I really really appreciate it please keep me in your prayers
Madeleine0622, I am just reading your post and realizing that tomorrow is the day you have chosen to start your quit. Congratulations on setting a date!! I hear what you are saying about wanting to quit but being afraid you can't do it, and beating yourself up for relapsing in the past when you had two great quits going.
I smoked for over 60 years and never saw myself as an ex-smoker although I would give quitting a stab every few years or so. I usually gave up before Day # 1 drew to a close although I did have one quit that lasted for a month about 20 years ago and one that lasted 4 months just last year.
Please don't misunderstand.. I'm not telling you all of this to make it seem like quitting is not possible, because I am now at almost at nine months without even one puff, so I'm living evidence that it CAN be done! But, I have been where you are and I feel what you are feeling.
I know what got me through the first few days was: making sure there were no cigarettes, lighters, or dirty ashtrays in the house when I went to bed the night before my quit date ( like many others, I have been known to re-light a discarded butt and just the sight of my lighter or matches could easily send me to my neighbor to bum a cigarette). And, drinking lots of cold water to help me flush the nicotine from my system and also to allow me to refocus on my goal to not smoke. Additionally, doing deep breathing exercises calmed me down and reminded me that I was quitting to get more oxygen to my smoke-filled lung tissue. (See Sweetpit's post above regarding deep breathing). Others can offer you some tips that worked for them, as well.
If by chance you do not smoke all your cigarettes by the time you go to bed tonight, hold the ones remaining under water and toss them in the trash.
When you get up in the morning, check in with us as soon as you can so we can offer any help you may need. We are here for you and sincerely wish you well.
~Suzy
Clean for 272 days / have not smoked at least 4,080 I would have otherwise
Thank you so much for reaching out to me I really appreciate it I have tried to text back about the times and I can’t seem to get my replies to go through thank you for thinking of me I really appreciate it I read a lot of stuff a lot of feelings I do Truly appreciate you being there for me this is it I’m done I am so freaking tired I can’t stand it I will definitely check in the morning with everybody please keep me in your prayers
Hello Suzy
Thank you so much for all your Your advice and sharing what you’ve been through with me it was very inspirational congratulations to you on your 272 days without smoking that’s wonderful
I’ve had 10 years before and now I’m back to day one UGG oh well I’m trying to To focus on today I’m trying to Relax right now my teenage son is having a really tough time and it is so hard to be a mom and not worry about your kids
Well I’m not gonna let it stress me out and ruin this day I’m gonna say my prayers and try to talk to him when he gets home
I know I’m a much better mom when I’m not smoking
I’m sorry I really keep trying to reply to everybody and I don’t know why it doesn’t go through I keep trying to talk to everybody and telling everybody how I feel but for some reason when I hit send it doesn’t work I appreciate everybody’s prayers and everybody’s concern and tomorrow as my quit date to thank you all so much I am so done with this addiction thank you are I’ll Keep checking in sometimes replies go through and sometimes I don’t I will definitely check in tomorrow morning because I want this addition to and I’m so over it thank you for thinking of me and praying for me
Thank you so much for reaching out to me I keep trying to reply back to people but every time I do it won’t save I really appreciate everybody’s help and support I swear to goodness when I get up tomorrow morning I will read everybody’s post I know what it feels like to have a good life without smoking I feel like such an addict I can’t stand it I actually Put the rest of my cigarettes in my neighbors door cause she Smokes and I’m quitting and I just went over to get one more last cigarette I feel like such an Addict I can’t stand it I know what it feels like to have 10 years without smoking I can’t believe I’m back at this point I hate it so much thank you all for your prayers and for listening I will definitely check in tomorrow morning it’s got in my quit date I can’t take this anymore
Thank you to everybody that has reached out to me and wish me luck for tomorrow I really appreciate it I try to respond people and for some reason my texts are not going through I really really really appreciate all the love and support I am so over this addiction I can’t stand it I feel like such an addict and nobody in my family and then my friends know what I’m going through and embarrassed and ashamed to tell them that I’m back smoking againThank you all so much I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow as an ex smoker I hate this addiction
It will all be fine. You sound committed to your quit. As everone keeps saying, just take it one day at a time and you wil succeed.
The first seven days were called Hell Week in the old Quitnet.com... I think the first 3 days are the worst. After that the “new normal” should seem a bit more comfortable... The second week is called Heck Week... it gets better...
The key to success is to N O T give in to your craving/s and smoke... That means to start over... all over again. Nicotine is very addictive and it’s like not quitting if you smoke... so hang in there. I smoked for 50 years and I am smoke free for two years and I feel complete! without a butt in my mouth!
Take it one day at a time! We are all here to help! Rosemary
Thank you so much Rose I really appreciate it I appreciate everybody’s support I woke up really excited this morning I can’t wait to start my new life congratulations on your two years that is wonderful you must feel so great every day it is great to have this site I need to remember to use it all the time especially when my triggers start coming in play
In the past I have done great during the day when I leave work or the weekends that I start having really bad cravings I got to get prepared for it and have another plan thank you again so much best of luck to you too
Thank you so much Barb I really was excited when I woke up this morning I saw A Beautiful double rainbow on the way to work this morning I could see it for about 10 minutes driving I really took it as a sign that today is gonna be a wonderful day I am very excited to be quitting thank you again
A rainbow is a symbol of hope. What a special way to begin your first day smoke free. Use your tools at work today!
Barb
Thank you Barb so much it really did give me a lot of hope it was the most beautiful rainbow I’ve seen in forever I actually got a picture of it while I was driving it wasn’t a great picture because I couldn’t look at the camera because I was driving but I was able to get the picture I’m gonna save it On my phone where I can see it all the time and remember how Truly hopeful And blessed I felt this morning
Here's another double rainbow for you.... took it a couple of years ago out our back yard. Stay strong. The pot of gold comes the first day you didn't think about a cigarette.
Wow your picture of the double rainbow is absolutely amazing it’s much better than mine I took mine when I was driving in the car and you know what you’re absolutely right the years I’ve had I’m not smoking and not thinking about Craving A cigarette is worth much more than any pot of gold could ever be
I had 10 years without smoking One time and it was truly wonderful to have that monkey off my back I can’t wait do to feel that way again
Thank you for the beautiful picture
Madeleine0622 WOW, a double rainbow, that HAS to be a good omen. You sound absolutely wonderful today, so positive, keep it up, we are here and will be checking in on you.
Ellen
How is the day going??? I didn't see this post until today. No one can ever take away the 13 years you were smoke free. Now again you are on a new path. I've tried, and tried, and tried. Doesn't want to stick with me. You've done it twice and you can do it again!!
Hello Christine thank you so much for getting back to me and reaching out to me and thank you for reminding me about my 13 wonderful years they were pretty awesome extremely awesome I just can’t believe how quickly I fell back into the old ways oh well it’s a pick myself up and start over again thank you again if you ever need anybody to text to talk with there any support I’m here By the way my name is Madeleine when I first signed up for this late I didn’t realize people used their names I wonder if I can change my user ID
Way to go on being smoke-free on Day 6. Quite an accomplishment!! Some days are definitely better than others...but you got this.