I find it interesting how addiction works on my mind. Logic seems to have little to do with the issue for me. I'm sitting here, really at peace. I'm a Christian and have had time today with my prayers. I've spent time doing some useful and fulfilling things personally and professionally and have 14 years into sobriety with 15 months smoke free. A beautiful, sunny day in Florida, and out of the blue, I think to myself how nice a couple cold beers and a cigarette would be. I guess it will always be part of my life. Thankfully, I will be a sober, non smoker tomorrow and can look forward to my next opportunity to reflect on the positive things that I have been blessed with as a result of the changes I have made so far. Happy and blessed Easter y'all.