I made it until 6 pm. My husband is driving me crazy tip toeing around and hovering trying not to set me off and I blew up inside. It came on so fast and I was in an emotional fury.....ready to just let loose on someone.....but instead i got in the car and bought a pack and sat and smoked a cigarette holding back the tears and hating myself. That's all i can say right now. Heading out to a 12 Step program right now.
So---OK.......how about NOT hating yourself? You blew your quit......fact. Now, start thinking about what happened, what you can do differently next time, how you can adjust to life without cigarettes. Have a conversation with your husband maybe? Let him know what you are going through. ABOVE ALL.......realize that it IS going to be tough in the beginning. Be ready for it; be ready to tell yourself...this is normal....this is ok....I can get through this.
Because you CAN do this. We all did and we are no different from you.
So no self hate......pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again.
Stay Strong.