Just blew it and am hating myself right now

Discussion created by lynnjoss on Jan 4, 2020
Latest reply on Jan 5, 2020 by Swanbird

I made it until 6 pm.  My husband is driving me crazy tip toeing around and hovering trying not to set me off and I blew up inside.  It came on so fast and I was in an emotional fury.....ready to just let loose on someone.....but instead i got in the car and bought a pack and sat and smoked a cigarette holding back the tears and hating myself.   That's all i can say right now.   Heading out to a 12 Step program right now.