I just re-found this site and have been reading for hours! I've had several quit attempts in the past few months. I've cleaned out all the ashtrays and am gonna smoke until midnight.....another half hour. Then, I'm done. I'm so scared. I feel like not having my cigs is like this big scary abyss in front of me. But I'm also really excited about finding out what its like to 'not smoke'. I've been smoking since I was 11 and will be 60 this year.....so I really don't have a clue what it will feel like. I guess i'm afraid to feel. Now I'm starting to overthink too. I read so much here about one day at a time, one minute at a time. I'm so afraid I'll cave in when the cravings come like I always have. I so want to make it one day without smoking.