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Last night I had a disturbing dream about me telling my husband I was going to start smoking again. Not sure where this came from - is it normal to have these dreams? I am 127 days smoke free and plan in keeping it that way- almost out of no mans land and it has been a challenge but is getting better
It's perfectly normal, think about how very involved smoking was with everything we did and felt and thought. Here is a link to indingrl.01.06.2011's blog MY SMOKEMARE!!!!
Ellen
I have had MANY over my 7+ year quit. I was proud that in the early days of my quit I would get out a cigarette, be ready to light it, and then stop myself. I thought how wonderful it was that I was committed even in my smokemares! However, I was not so proud in a later year when I had one where I was sitting in a lovely garden, lit a cigarette, smoked it, and enjoyed every last bit of it.
They have no relation to your quit - don't let them have you think they do!
Congrats on 127 days!
Nancy
Whoo Hoo 127 Days of Freedom ... Fantastic ... Honestly, I think those smokemares come a lot through the first year...I honestly have had only a couple and I now look at them as part of the process...because my other two quits, I never had the smokemares and went back to smoking...this time I am having them...I think it is Nico can’t get me awake, so he tries in my sleep...take it for what it’s worth ... just a dream... Happy Wednesday Hon ....~ Colleen 359 DOF
Big congrats on your 127 days smoke free. As you see from the responses, yes, it's very common.
Barb
I think of them as dreams about my Exes!
I actually dreamed twice last night about smoking! In the first dream I actually smoked - that never happened before. It's really scary when your first wake up.
Barb
Most common dream for quitters is smoking. In my dreams I slip up without thinking, just grab one like I never quit. Then I'm overcome with guilt. Thankful to wake up and realize it's just a dream.
I've had many smoking dreams thru the last 7 years, not too often but often enough. VERY scary at first, but over time I learned to laugh at them. (For a while at one time I even looked forward to them, so I could smoke without consequences LOL. I know, the junkie in me still raised its ugly head occasionally.)
I did have one last night, which was not funny and I did not appreciate.
And I woke up thinking about this song from "Cinderella" which I totally believed at the time . But I know I don't believe it now, I certainly don't "wish" I were smoking
I think I've had fewer this year than ever in my 15+ smoke free years. Not to worry.
I've been quit 13 years and probably have one every month or so. Mine have morphed over the years. Most of the time I don't feel particularly guilty. Just find myself smoking and think, "oh well, I just have been lying to everyone." Of late, however, I'm beginning to hide my smoking in my dreams and the guilt is creeping in. Which I find interesting. Why is there guilt now? However in the very beginning of my quit I had a couple of doozies - the kind where you wake up in a panic.
By the way, if you type "smokemare" in the search box, you will be presented with a whole bunch of people who written about the topic. It's a common theme. At least they're only dreams!
Woke up once when dreaming I had dropped my cigarette in the bed. I was in a panic trying to find it.
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I had one last night and blogged MY SMOKEMARE TODAY- gentle hug