Can I open a discussion about how I made it two weeks. I didn't want a cigarette at all, felt great, had finally gotten through the loss of my two close family members, found ways around my addiction, then, fell right back in thid one night, right now, embarrassed, feeling the need to confess. Uhg. I just want to talk about it. The comfort that holds on. The awareness of the damage. The sadness of loss. Even though I felt so much better without the nasty habit. Realizing that just a change of habit would save me.
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Don't beat yourself up. Get back up, dust yourself off - and begin again! Remember, too, that this is not a habit, it's an ADDICTION - and a difficult one at that from which to break free. Lots of folks here took more than one go at it to be successful. You are not alone in that.
Think about what thought process caused you to pick one up and smoke it - and plan NOW what you will do differently when you quit again. I hope you didn't keep any around? Doing so is just giving yourself permission to fail. Will you take a few slow, deep breaths? Go for a walk? Call a friend? Turn on some tunes and sing along? Blog "HELP" here and wait for one of us to talk you down off the ledge?
This doesn't need to be a failure unless you make it so. Get back at it!
Nancy