Last week I read extensively on this site and some others -- really great resources. Today I have not smoked any cigarettes. As I was going to bed last night I still had two left. This might be dumb, but I took them with me on my way to work this morning; one I slowly ripped up while driving, and the other I pinned to the bulletin board in my office. Next to it I wrote 379,600. I could smoke it, but that's how many I would have to have along with it. That's the reality for me, and I am accepting it.