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I made a pledge today and I'm sticking to it. Following one day at a time. I am feeling super weird right now though,my mental health is all in tangles. My emotions are on high alert. Just breathing and painting. I never stop wanting them. It is so freaking bizarre. Even though I have a moment where I feel like I'm having a stroke. I still want one as soon as the feeling goes away. I just have to get through the night.
Hang in there you can do this. I would take a hot bath or shower and that would relax me a lot try that for now and then stay busy. Keep a beverage near you that is pleasing to you just not alcohol. If you have a quit kit go to that and see what you can do to stay busy if you don’t have one go to my page I have one on my page. Don’t give up you can do this.
It is the nico demon feeding you lies Coyote1 ... he telling you, you need him...the longer you refuse him, the stronger you will become and weaker nico gets...keep saying NOPE NMW .. Happy Sunday ~ Colleen 258 DOF
Hope you doing better this morning. Keeping busy really helped me a lot. You've got his, so stay strong. We're here for you.
Barb
Hope this day is a better one. Remember to keep a cold bottle of water handy from which to sip, change up your routines, don't let those smoking thoughts rattle around in your brain alone - get yourself busy and distracted. Slow/deep breaths, going slower and deeper and CONCENTRATING on that air flow helps. Get some exercise - even a few sets of stairs or ten minutes of marching in place will do. Better still to get a walk outside. Get Fireballs or Sour Patch Kids to shock our taste buds.
Right down why you want to quit - keep that list handy - or write the reasons on Post-Its and put them all over your living space to remind you.
These early days are awful, we all know. Take it a morning (sometimes an hour or a minute) at a time. Break your quit down into chunks.
It WILL get easier - I promise - as long as you don't smoke!
Nancy
Stop fighting. You're exhausted.
Instead, take a deep breath and accept your addiction for what it is. ADDICTION. You will never not be addicted to nicotine, but you will be free from it.
You want to stop wanting them. You will. But it takes time, and during that time you will need to distract yourself, and never EVER give yourself permission to feed it.
Five years, ten and a half months smober here, Coyote. I was in rough mental shape when I quit, but somewhere along the line as I remained smober, I found what I was looking for--restoration. I'm recovered. It means that I'm free now. Cigarettes are not my way of life. Smoking is not on my mind.
When I first quit, I focused on how bad I felt (so hard unlearning the dependency) all the things I'd experienced as a smoker that made me want to quit fell away from my thoughts. All I could think about was how crazed I felt and wonder why it wouldn't go away.
I hiked, walked, read and collected nature books, photographed birds and animals to draw later, sketched, worked at my job, yard saled, pondered life, did chores, watched quit smoking videos on youtube, pondered life some more...
And felt helpless.
But I didn't smoke and, like I said, I found it--the prize--smoking doesn't matter to me.
Stick with your goal, because you made it for a good reason. Keep walking forward.
You have gotten great advice...take it! This WILL pass, I remember very well how you feel now. I did not think it would ever end, I was wrong and some seriously difficult things happened in my life that I would normally have smoked through...doing more damage to my poor lungs. It isn't worth it!
Ellen
THREE DEEP BREATHS - attitude gratitide - to deep breathe freely - 
I never stopped wanting them for the longest time too. But that wanting finally ended. And the wash of freedom from that wanting is worth the waiting. That's all I can tell you.
I want you to sit and ponder this statement you made: "I desperately want this quit to be my last." Why did you say that? Why do you want it? Remember that feeling. Remember that desperation.
Keep the desperation in wanting this quit to be your last. Make that desperation greater than the wanting to smoke. Both wanting to quit and wanting a cigarette are desperations. Right? Which desperation will lead you to the best outcome? Obviously quitting will. What you don't yet know is what the freedom from the desperations (both of them) is like. And you can't know unless you keep hanging on and hanging in. It's hard. Yes. It's damn hard. If you want your freedom badly enough, you will hang on - no matter what. Please, please do. Please believe that there IS an end to all the struggling. And that end is better than you can ever imagine.