Day 77 and today has been worst day by far . I really feel like smoking but I won’t .
Today I went running in my favorite neighborhood I was hoping to move to . That won’t be happening . I can’t afford to live there . Even if I could swing it my home would take forever to sell because I live so far from everything....So I’m having a bit of a pity party and feeling sad and sorry for myself . Usually I get over things quickly but since I’ve quit smoking this time , the sadness lingers ....
i decided just to go home and appreciate my beautiful home , vegetable garden and my beloved dog . So what if I stay in a rear view town that doesn’t so much as have sidewalks and getting the city to pick up the garbage is a struggle every single week . I feed about 30 strays daily as people here don’t believe in having their animals fixed . It could always be much much worse .... I could be a Syrian refugee or live in a cave in Yemen or a war torn country .
Thanks for listening . And no worries I am not going to smoke .