I hope you will take the time to do the recommended reading and prep work. It really CAN make a difference. That cigarette you smoked reduced your anxiety because it shut up the brain sensors demanding their fix. THAT anxiety was caused by the last cigarette you smoked, and the one before THAT caused the stress reduced by the NEXT one you smoked - and on, and on. You are an addict - and cigarettes were designed ON PURPOSE to create it. They only give a momentary bit of relief before the process starts all over.
It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of life stress.......and I am sorry that is going on. But - how do you think people who never smoked, or those of us who have quit deal with it? We take slow, deep breaths; we do a set of stairs; we march in place; we call a friend; we come here and vent. You need to find a new doctor for your Rx - ASAP. Did your doctor have someone take over the practice? If so - your records should still be accessible and you probably can get a supply until you get an appointment. You might also go to an Urgent Care place - they do routine care in them, too. I hope you are understanding that smoking did not one thing to help with any of the situations with which you are dealing?
Get back to quitting as quickly as you can. Let us help!
Nancy
