Well i have 169 days in and all of a sudden i don't even care if i relapse or not, well that cant really be true or i wouldn't be writing this would i. I cant get over this sad feelin that has hit me since friday. I'm thinking why not have a cig , but it wont help me feel better just worse . I do want one . i have been using all the things that was got me this far but one thing that did help is not around anymore and never will be again. One minute i am fine the next i am crying . this is driving me crazy, i dont even know what i am sad about
I will be smoke-fee just wanted to get this off my chest i do miss smoking , man i am crazy how can i miss something that will kill me/. Maybe that is it .
I will be smoke-fee just wanted to get this off my chest i do miss smoking , man i am crazy how can i miss something that will kill me/. Maybe that is it .
Sometimes I think I don't care, but I really do and I would be beyond pissed off at myself if I smoked.
My theory is that when we are felling down in the dumps and want a shot of dopamine, we remember how easily we could get that shot by smoking. It's not worth it though.
I'm proud of you for staying the course :-)
(((((Sandi)))))