Giulia

Right Now I Could Blow it

Discussion created by Giulia Champion on Nov 25, 2008
Latest reply on Nov 26, 2008 by talulattdh

Right now I could get in my car and drive to the gas station and buy a pack of my favorite smokes. Right now. That's how much I want a cigarette. Right now. Everything in my psychie is craving one. For absolutely no reason whatsoever that I can see. Except that I just ate lunch. And food is has always been a major trigger.

So, shall I go do that? Just say the hell with it? I want one and I want it NOW. NOW. I'm tired of fighting the Demon. And I don't care what you all think of me and my failure. Because I just want what I want. NOW.

End of nightmare. Because I won't let it become a reality. Because I WILL say NO, no matter what. Because I HAVE and I CAN continue to.

So SCREW YOU DEMON!

For you newbies - a little inner monologue from an ex smoker of 2 years 8 mos - this is how you keep a quit.

AAAARRRRRGH.

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