One month and on the patches and lozenges. Mind and body are going crazy. I didn’t expect Nirvana, but I sure didn’t know it could feel even harder. Anxiety is eating me alive. I just want to sleep. Existing pain levels have increased to barely bearable. I get the shakes a lot from doing daily activities. I’m supposed to go to my docs today and don’t want to. I’m so tired of feeling so bad. Day to day challenges make me want to hide somewhere. I’m so tired of hearing how good I’m doing. It doesn’t feel that way to me. I’m having cravings now. Not used to that. Coming out of the holidays that were the worst ever being alone. So many triggers. I feel outnumbered.
I'm so sorry you're feeling bad. You have a month of not smoking? Even though you feel bad? That's why people are telling you that you're doing well! Your strength and courage are simply beautiful in the face of challenges. Go easy on yourself and maybe talk with a professional about your shakes and anxiety. It doesn't hurt to get advice and support from them as well as us I hope you find moments of peace and acceptance in your journey. You deserve them.