Quitting again after a relapse and looking for support

Discussion created by DONE48done on Oct 31, 2018
Latest reply on Nov 4, 2018 by bonniebee

Hi all!


i am a 48 yo man who has been somoking a pack a day for 2.5 years.  I had somoked for 15 years then quit for 10 years then relapsed. I am so ashamed and scared about this addiction.  I am convinced I have lung cancer and carry great guilt.  I have tried everything from medication, support groups, acupuncture, meditation.  I have a cough and can be short of breath.  It makes me feel gross.  I relapsed after my mother died and was very depressed.  I was back home and smoked a friend’s cigarette and I was off to the races.  


I decided this this morning that I just can’t live like this anymore.  Any words of support would be greatly appreciated.


thank you,