i am a 48 yo man who has been somoking a pack a day for 2.5 years. I had somoked for 15 years then quit for 10 years then relapsed. I am so ashamed and scared about this addiction. I am convinced I have lung cancer and carry great guilt. I have tried everything from medication, support groups, acupuncture, meditation. I have a cough and can be short of breath. It makes me feel gross. I relapsed after my mother died and was very depressed. I was back home and smoked a friend’s cigarette and I was off to the races.
I decided this this morning that I just can’t live like this anymore. Any words of support would be greatly appreciated.