Thanks Mommamich. I’m into games too. I grew up in Albuquerque. So hi from a fellow New Mexican. Beautiful state I very much miss here in Seattle. It’s pretty here, but I miss the beauty of the desert and sunshine! All the green and colors here come from rains from October thru May. And sunshine? Only a few months a year. Last time I was in NM I thought the sun would blind me. 
Hi again, Gwenivere!
Everything you described in your original post sounds like me in the first weeks of withdrawal.
thinking of smoking/not smoking 24/7... check
irritable/crabby/moody... check
sleepy/sleepless... check
tired of all of the above and thinking I will always be that way and it is my new "normal"... check (big addict lie!)
You do at some point soon need to grab the brass ring and trust that it will get better, we ALL say it does, but it will only get better if you do not smoke. I know, you don't want to think about that, you don't want to give up those few you smoke, but until you do, you won't start to heal. You've had plenty of time for cutting back now.
Have you talked to your Pdoc about possibly adjusting your meds for the duration of your most "active" quit phase? Your body reacts differently to medications when you are no longer smoking. I don't think its just the nicotine, there are so my other substances you're inhaling with the cigarette smoke that can have affects on your meds. Anecdotally, as an example, I need way way less caffeine to get my eyes open and motor running in the a.m. 
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I'm happy to hear that your insurance is going to help with your quit-aids!! That's a step in the right direction for health care, they didn't used to.
Edit to add: As I saw somewhere on this site, "If you're smoking while quitting, you're doing it wrong" . You are pretty much driving yourself slowly insane by putting yourself in more-or-less constant withdrawal, which would drive anybody over the edge, not to mention someone with anxiety issues to begin with.
As before... take what helps and leave the rest. I don't want to be harsh, but I'd like you to open your eyes a bit wider to the reality of addiction, and getting yourself beyond smoking to the better life ahead.
"How I could go hours without one and not even think about it?"
Maybe you are preparing without overthinking the preparation.
It should be encouraging as you realize you don't need to smoke as much.
That's what you want to build upon.
Now you have to stop clinging to 3 cigarettes.
