Today I made it to the 48 hour mark and then just threw that all away. Those first 48 hours went by so easily and then when I woke up this morning I was having a constant battle in my head for hours and I finally let the addiction win. I felt great those first 48 hours and I was even breathing better already. I am using the 21mg patch so I know it want physical cravings, but mental cravings. I tired to prepare myself the best I could and I tried distracting myself all morning, but I wasn't strong enough. 1 cigarette led to smoking 10. I felt like crap after each one. I don't know why I did this to myself if I felt like crap after the first one. The only good news is that I am not giving up and have started over. I didn't even tell my husband that I slip because he would just say I told you so. He quit 9 years ago and it was so easy for him. He doesn't understand how much of a struggle it is for me. He thinks it should be easy for everybody to Quit since it was so easy for him. So frustersting.
We're all different, but it isn't easy for most people. It's your quit and your quit alone. You have to do what works for you. Great that you got right back on track and didn't wait to start again. Have you been spending time on this site educating and preparing for your quit? Along with the support on this site, it has made such a difference for me. You're early on your journey, so stay close and reach out for help when you need it. Don't wait till you've smoke that cigarette. We'e here for you.
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