I did a blog by mistake, I just meant to ask for help. I got upsetting news and all I can think about is going out to buy cigarettes and have just one. I am freaking out and can't stop crying. The little monkey is getting the best of me. I have a patch on, have gum, have a vape at my disposal if I want. The monkey is making me crazy. I have 13 days under my belt!!!!!!!# what is wrong with me?