You hurt. Most of the time. And you wish it would go away. But it's not. And you're having a hard time staying smoke free right about now. Because you think taking a hit on that cigarette will dull the pain a little. Or if not that, it will at least make you feel like you're getting SOMETHING pleasurable out of this pain filled life. It takes almost all your strength just to get through the day because of the pain. And now you've got the added struggle of fighting the craving to smoke. How much longer can you hang on?
You hang on until you get through a craving. You do whatever it takes. But you don't smoke. Smoking will NOT ease your pain. Smoking is not a pain management system. It is a poison that is killing you, slowly.
Stop. Think. Don't do it. Don't trip the trap.