Something about today has me uneasy again. It's a little disheartening as I have been feeling good for the past few days. My feeling is not as bad as it was last week, but I'm unsettled. I think the trigger was when I let my dog out. I had a brief flash of smoking as I usually would go out on my deck with her. I have done all of the things I do to redirect. One of which is coming here. I am happy, for the moment, that my family keeps putting dishes in the sink. At least I have something to do every few minutes (they are pigs). Normally I would tell them to put their own dishes in the dishwasher, but today I will do it because it really does distract my thoughts. I will be off to work soon, which will make today easier as I will be very busy. I know once the day is done I will be happy to have worked through this feeling and have another day WON. Thanks for listening.