Hi Everyone,
I blogged earlier, but didn't put it down as an emergency. I'm panicking badly. I have been trying all morning to shake this overwhelming feelings. I know I don't want to smoke. And I Know I won't. I just feel...well I don't know what I feel, but it's not good. Could use some encouragement and words of wisdom. Thanks!
-Michelle
Thanks Nancy. I did some knitting, drank water, and got dressed for work. I am going to pray and do some breathing. I know I just need to get over this speed bump. I think I am calming down and I know once I get to work I will regain a focal point. Was worried this morning. The nerves are settling down, but I feel totally drained. Thanks again. I will turn my frown upside down.
-Michelle
Could you have been having a panic or anxiety attack?
They drain all the energy out of you. Just asking because that's how the attacks make me feel.
The only thing that helps me during the panic attack is doing something really active - housework-wise. Dishes, vacuuming, stripping bed linen.
Hope you are ok now.
Blessings
Bree
Yes Bree. That's exactly what it was. I have had them before, but my quit wasn't on the line and I am doing everything I can. I'm using all of the tools I've learned, so I think it's because it was this same time last year that I made the wrong choice and smoked. It's been one full year today and I'm sure that has something to do with it. I am at work now and know that my thoughts will be redirected. I think once I make it through today I will be okay, but I still won't let down my guard. I'm finding this little pesky voice to be an annoyance. Thanks for reaching out and for your blessings.
-Michelle
Glad to hear!
Congratulations! You didn't smoke!
Nancy
No I didn't. Thanks Nancy.
-Michelle
Whew I'm just noticing this post, you got through it Michelle,I'm so happy that's awesome, you're awesome, here's a quit poem that I think may be helpful.((((((((((huge hug))))))))))
Very helpful Marilyn. I feel your hugs and thank you for the support. Thank you hugs right back at you.
-Michelle
Holy moley! I love this!
Sometimes during our quit we get to points like this. In the beginning it is a pull on us. BUT, if we resolve that no matter how we feel that we are not going to smoke it lessens this pull. This is were you find an inner strength that you have never used to quit smoking. It is a no matter what I will not smoke. Each time you go through it you get stronger. One step further up towards freedom. Hang tough, stay close do not quit on your quit. You can do this.
The best is yet to come. FREEDOM!
Thanks Jackie. Your reaching out has helped and I am grateful.
-Michelle
Good for you for reaching out! My daughter likes to remind me that it takes great courage to show up broken.
AnnetteMM I never thought of it like that. I guess for me it's hard because I want to be seen as strong. It's one of many flaws. Thanks for reaching back out to me.
Regards,
Michelle
Im glad you thought to come here. I am praying for you. Those days can come out of nowhere,.I recall them well. I would have a few awesome days then BOOM one that left me feeling like day one.
Those days I cleaned. Cleaned hard. I had the cleanest house in town. I also drank a lot of ice water, jumped like a mad woman on mini tramp...Vicks vapor rub.
Get out you tool box. The Nicodemon is upset and wants you to fail.
Tell him NO FREAKIN WAY and push through. The other side is fresh and clean and wonderful. AIM yourself that way and don't look back. Love you~Missy
Vicks? Like, under the nose?
Yes - just a tiny bit. The smell will eliminate any tobacco smoke smell and the slight burn will serve as a reminder that you have quit!
Nancy
YES.....That stuff in little blue bottles were instant crave fighters for me. I had them everywhere! I even bought the Vivks inhaler and used it. Worked wonders for me and got me through some ruff patches!
I have those day's too, what I did was go outside and take a deep breath then I grab a peppermint and feel like I am missing something so I grab another peppermint I go thru them like crazy, I do hope you will always come back here it helps so much I love this place. Oh yea and scream if you have to that helps too.keep up the good work you are doing great
Well everyone...thank you for your help today. There were a few points that I wanted to drop onto my knees and beg for mercy (I am sure that would be a problem for my boss), but I didn't. I put a stick of gum in my mouth (love spearmint) and took a walk outside. I was a little nervous at first because I used to smoke when I took a walk, so this was a new experience. It actually was very nice. It was cool (like sticking your head in the freezer) and the gum felt fresh on my breath. Had a few more hard moments, but I said N.O.P.E. I'm glad that I did. Thanks again to all from the bottom of my hearing heart <3
-Michelle
19 DOF
Oh honey, I am so sorry, I was not on here much today...too many things to do. Please believe that it gets easier and that hanging by a thread is a WHOLE lot better than smoking. I had times when I could not identify my feelings. I also had an APP at one time (not this quit) that would tell me how much time I added to my life...I honestly would say out loud...thanks a lot.
I am SO PROUD of you for getting through this day. You are a ROCK STAR...remember that.
XOXOXO,
Ellen
Once again Ellen, thank you so much for your encouragement today and always. Congratulations on your 4 years. I would like to celebrate that for myself in the future. I know I will get there one day at a time.
Hugs out to you,
Michelle
Thanks
I hope you are doing better today. If it helps to know, as each day passes, it will get easier to remain quit.
Irish Rose
Thanks for reaching out Irish Rose. Today is going well. I am enjoying the beautiful weather and breathing deep. I am so grateful for everyone's support. Yesterday is gone and I am in today smoke free.
Regards,
Michelle
Yay you, it's a mild day here in NB too it's 38°F or 4°Celcius but when the sun's out it feels so much warmer, I'm so happy that you are having a good day.
These turn arounds are good for everyone to hear about.
It feels good to learn and grow. I am happy I can give back. I feel needy sometimes, but no one ever complains. Thanks!
-Michelle
No one is going to complain MichelleDiane, we have ALL been there, this journey is not an easy one but every quitter here who has stayed quit is living proof that it is POSSIBLE and you are already giving back.
I agree with Mandolinrain, you WILL get there.
Ellen
Thank you Ellen. I am getting there one day at a time. Today will be 3 weeks and I am amazed. I am, for the most part, not pulling my hair out and crying. Some days good some days not so good, but that is life in general. Not smoking has uncomplicated my life, which isn't easy because my life is nuts, but at least not smoking takes part of the nuttiest away. I am glad that I can give back to people who have given so much to me. Hope you are having a wonderful smoke free day!
-Michelle
slow breath in for 8 seconds, slow breath out 8 seconds. take a drive and scream your full head off. It passes after a few minutes....... you're doing fanfrick'infastic
Lori...love that word...you should patent it! Thanks.
-Michelle
Good job-craves always stop. Also, if you begin to think smoking will make you feel better or help you get through something difficult or just start to miss it, recognize it's "junky thinking" There are no good reasons to blow your quit, just bad excuses.
Amen freeneasy!
-Michelle
Get busy! Go for a walk! Brisk! Arms a-swinging! Maybe sing out loud as you go! or.........
Slow, deep breaths! Breathe in - fill your chest cavity, including your back lungs, and your "tummy;" breathe slowly out, starting with your bronchial area, then your back chest, then your lungs, finally gently squeeze that air our of your tummy. Do it AGAIN!
Change your mind's direction. Play a computer game. Go to the store and buy a jigsaw puzzle book, or an adult coloring book and markers. Start in on one of them.
DO NOT argue with yourself about smoking. You already made your decision you will not smoke NO MATTER WHAT...this is WHAT!
Remember the first few days? You KNOW you don't want to start over. And, remember, it's NOT an option.
Just don't smoke - you will be so disappointed in yourself if you do!
This WILL pass; you just need to get through it.
Nancy