I don't know about you guys, but sometimes the IDEA and ambiance of smoking pulls me back. For example, my boyfriend and I go to fall creek falls (a state park) often. We rent a fisherman's cabin and sit on the porch above the water and smoke cigarettes, look at the stars, and just talk. The memories of that often make me long for smoking when I am there. Or sitting on my stoop with my best friend smoking cigarettes and talking makes me miss smoking. Especially now, going through quitting and separation. When my boyfriend goes outside to look at the stars and smoke, I don't want to go becuase I don't want to start smoking!! Or when my best friend calls me to come downstairs and have coffee and cigarettes I say no because I don't want to be pulled into it. It just seems like the things associated with smoking can be so nice in my thoughts, I sometimes think I don't want to quit. Does this happen to anyone else?
TODAY is my quit day...going on 6 hours of no smokes....ggrrrrrrr....this looked like a good place to find out about those little things that pull back at ya !!!
I read your post - and something jumped out at me - BIG TIME !!!
Did you like going outside and smoking; or being with your boyfriend, and looking at the stars ???
You have a best friend who sits on the stoop with you and talks...and, I'm sure, listens !! You are a lucky lady !!!
You seem to be setting yourself up for failure....smoking or not smoking is more important to you than your boyfriend ??? or your best friend ??? Why would you want to lose either one of these people in your life just because of cigarettes ?? Your trick is to find a substitute - I am carrying around a straw - a big, long, drinking straw !!! I "puff" on it - I "flick ashes" off of it !! I hold it in my hand like a cig. I'll look stupid until I'm comfortable without it !!
I'll be DAMMED it this smoking addiction is going to cause me to stop enjoying my life - - - that's what it has been doing for over 40 years....now, it's time to ENJOY some health and well-being !!!
Don't you think ????