25 days again
was able to change
the quit date
in one area
but not in the other area
still intermittently mad
for seemingly no reason
then I remember
oh that's right
I'd be smoking now
and somehow
that calms me down
and it makes me mad
that i would have had
a month and 22 days
instead of just 25 days
but what does it matter
the important thing is
just not to smoke now
and it's a victory
even though I feel mean
and withdrawn and
upset and confused
cuz I wanna and I don't
of the 40 years
25 days isn't much
so it's ok
to be an ex
today
25 days is still a springboard for victory over the addiction. Don't knock it. You had the resolve to get back at it and take back those days, which will open to door to more days if you keep doing the work. At the very least, come here every day to read, just to keep your head in the game.
Don't beat yourself up. You're doing this great thing, and need all the support you can get, especially from yourself!!