The stockings are emptied and most of the gifts are unwrapped. There is a little leftover turkey but the dressing is all gone. Driving home from my family Christmas dinner , a brief thought of smoking surfaced from my addictive brain.
I could not even laugh about it. A little disbelief since I have come so far but I also realize that this time of the year those thoughts come. I take it seriously and quickly go into protect my quit mode. NO! I tell myself "I don't do that anymore". I was sure the thought would be brief and pass. Just a thought of smoking associated with the "festivities", no need to act upon it because "I don't do that anymore." No Need to stop and pick up a pack. I am free. I splurged on cookies, chocolate, cake and ice cream along with an alcoholic drink on Christmas Eve, so I am open to a certain amount of vulnerability if I am not on guard A cigarette could have been the last hurrah. (past tense) because....I don't do that anymore. I was able to brush off the phantom smoke and not focus on finding where it is coming from. Moving forward because I know it will pass. I will not be fooled. In serious protect mode I told myself, suck it in and out take a few deep breathes. Go home. No reason to stop and get smokes, I couldn't envision being able to stop. A cup of hot chocolate will suffice because "I don't do that anymore". Keeping it real, I am free 1065 DOF. Merry Christmas Everyone. I hope you all enjoyed your day smoke free. I am a nonsmoker.
Because, I don't do that anymore