I can't believe it has been so long since I last had a cigarette. In a way it feels like it has been years or has it just been a few weeks?? Neither I guess. 290 days. I feel much better. NO pain in my chest no coughing and no more wasted time or money.
My Husband still continues to smoke. He has switched to "lights" but I don't really know if that is better or not.
My Sister in law was diagnosed with lung cancer. She had half of her lung removed, it didn't help. She is going to die. She is 80 pounds at 5'8. She can barely eat, walk or carry a conversation with out dozing off. She is under Hospice care now and has been given 6 months to live but we will all be surprised if she makes it till Christmas. She is just a shell of what she once was. She is my Husbands only sibling, his big Sister. She has smoked for most of her life. She is 48 years old. My Husbands father smoked, He died in his late 50's. My Husbands mother smoked, She is now 65 and on oxygen , She can not walk from the couch to the bathroom without being able to breathe. She has had several mini strokes and has COPD. She will most likely die in the next few years.
Yet, my Husband still continues to smoke. That is the power that nicotine has over us. It is so hard to break free from it. But we must. It will kill us. It will devastate our parents and our spouses and our children. My 24 Year old Niece is taking care of her 1 year old son and her dyeing Mother. She is changing both of their diapers. It's terrible to watch this and to look in to her eyes and remember the person that she used to be. I told her how awful this is and she said to me "Well, I did this to myself"
I was meant to come here and share my story of fighting my way out of addiction but my thoughts got away from me. This is the reality of what smoking can and will do to a family. I quit with a smoker in my house. He still smokes in the house and I feel if I can't get him to stop he will be next. If I can quit any of you can quit. It SUCKED and it was hard. I wanted to quit on my quit many times, but I am more important to myself then a cigarette will ever be.
Please take care of yourselves and your families. No one should have to go through this.
Love yourselves,
Kelly XO
