Sometimes
the simplest things feel
like a big huge deal
in this delicate state
I do what I can
which doesn't seem like much
Sometimes
the simplest things feel
like a big huge deal
in this delicate state
I do what I can
which doesn't seem like much
Keep on Keepin on. You do not know how far you can go unless you keep going: never give in never give up. You can do this. It is doable. One day at a time sometimes one minute. The cravings do not last that long embrace them. Enjoy this ride to freedom. . Think of your body cleansing itself. Breath, have lots of water available. You are well on your way.
Hang tough, stay close, NOPE no matter what. Tell yourself you "just don't do this anymore." Be done. The journey continues.
Remember that this too shall pass...we have ALL been there, Tammy. There was someone on here who said that her therapist said everyone could feel sorry for themselves for 15 minutes a day...no more. I am not sure you are feeling sorry for yourself but it sounds like you are in a fragile state and you need to push yourself out of that, whatever that means...watch some funny videos, play computer games...be gentle with yourself but at the same time, be FIRM. Tell yourself that you have to take care of yourself by doing something that makes you feel better. No crave ever killed anyone...smoking kills, lots and lots of people. Pay attention to JACKIE1-25-15, move on. You CAN do this...you ARE doing this. Maybe a little reward for yourself is in order?
One day at a time...
I was afraid to go outside cuz
I just didn't feel good - sniffles, funny tummy and such.
I just felt little and withdrawn... and
that's where the smokes and the smokers are.
And the more I put off going the scarier it seemed.
DANGER WILL ROBINSON...
SO-o-o-o-o-o-o-o
I was able to go run some errands
and make it back home and not smoke
Day 14
Tammyzhere Was wondering how you were feeling??!! I blogged on day 14 myself and then I started noticing that so many others have blogged on day 13, 14.. seemingly being a time in which a lot of us start to have a tough go of it . I'm using a nicotine patch and I suffered (mentally, and probably a bit physically too) through strong cravings, feeling exhausted and just all around bummed and lost. Those days.. 13, 14, 15 I truly questioned myself. I reached deep down and pulled out the anger I had about this power struggle I was having with my BRAIN. Honestly I was NOT going to let my addiction win, there is no going back for me so I just plowed through - And here I am at day 20 - I WON! I stayed very close to this support group and I honestly feel like had I not got the amazing support I did during that time from THIS GROUP, things might be different for me me today!! I congratulate you! It sounds like you went CT - If so, you are truly winning. Hope you're feeling better!!
It's getting much easier not to smoke with each passing day. I'm thinking of it less and less now. Part of me still can't believe it. I tried so many different times and struggled so badly until I just gave in and smoked. This time was so completely different. I figure it's a combinations of 1) being ready, 2) reading that Allen Carr booklet and 3) have the support of the people here at ex. So far the only weirdness is that my stomach and sleep are still messed up but, I figure that's to be expected. I read something about the effect of caffeine being different without the nicotine. 40 years of smoking vs. 16 days of freedom
Congratulations on 18 days! I am much more sensitive to caffeine since I quit smoking, I am not sure that is something that happens most people. I really don't know. I do know that I used to be able to drink a pot of coffee and now I can't drink more than a cup. I cannot drink anything with caffeine in it late in the afternoon or I won't sleep. That is my personal experience. The loopiness is part of the journey...deep breaths in through the nose, exhale slowly through purse lips...like you are blowing bubbles. You need oxygen and since you are not smoking, it is entirely possible that you have forgotten how to breathe.
I am really proud of you...coming up on three weeks!
Ellen
I read that we usually breathe 13 to 14 times each minute. relaxed person 8 to 9 each minute and spiritual ones 4 to 5.
That's REALLY slow...normal respirations (at least when monitoring patients) is 16-20/min. I don't think that I would get enough oxygen with 4-5, now I am going to be stuck counting, LOL. I breathe in and count then then at LEAST double the time when I exhale, if I can triple it, I do that but I will admit that sometimes I kind of panic.
I found a half cigarette then smoked it.
Now I dunno how to change my date on here...
I have about 2 weeks now.
PLEASE think about what caused you to make that decision to smoke. then make a plan now for what you will do instead during the same experience THIS time. This gets easier - it really does - but you have to be patient and stick with it.
Decide you are not going to smoke another cigarette NO MATTER WHAT!
I am glad you are starting in again right away. Proud of you!
Nancy
Tammyzhere So sorry you had to reset your quit date...the most important thing is to figure out what went wrong and be prepared should it happen again. There are always going to be half cigarettes laying around...sometimes WHOLE ones. I remember one of my many failed quits when I was seriously throwing a tantrum. I stood in front of the refrigerator trying to think of yet another thing I could stuff my feelings into...I said out loud, "Oh PLEASE God, I cannot DO this." I slammed the refrigerator door and a full, unopened pack of cigarettes fell off the top of the fridge and into my waiting hands. I am sorry to say that I took that as a "sign." I cannot tell you how long I smoked again before another quit. That was my story, quit/fail, quit/fail, quit/fail...over and over and over again. This LAST time, and it IS the last time, I nearly died and I knew that this was the REAL sign. It has been almost 4 years after 47 years as a smoker who quit over and over again. I am so happy with this success...I cannot tell you how wonderful it feels and how much I would love YOU to feel it. Besides, I really enjoy your poetry!
XOXO,
Ellen
What you do may not seem like much, but even the smallest step is a step forward on the road to FREEDOM!
Stay Strong and Embrace the Journey
Darren