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So Angry

Question asked by Tammyzhere on Nov 15, 2017
Latest reply on Nov 20, 2017 by elvan

It appears to be a combination of things:


the nicotine withdrawal

all the feelings I stuffed with smoking

losing my 40 year old pacifier

the craziness of wanting to and not wanting to smoke at the same time

so edgy and loopy that I dunno what I'm doing


I just know that quiting is the right thing

even though it is really hard to do


I have all these scented candles, candies and vapor sticks

And I tell myself.... What if... I never had to buy another pack


It's new to not have cigarettes in the house

scary and victorious

so vulnerable

so volatile


I've stopped so many times before

and went back


One time I made it 8 months

usually it was 2 weeks

or just 2-3 days


So far, I've only told strangers


It can go either way

but yesterday I went out

and didn't buy any

and I'll go out again today


I used to buy 2-3 cartons at a time

I went out of town to get them

half hour or so away


What if - I never had to buy cigarettes again

What if - I became a non smoker