I'm 10 hours from bedtime and sorta have had an urge to smoke. I'm not going to. I came here instead. I'm going over in my head that I have no reason to smoke and every reason to not smoke. It's a cloying addiction. It's beyond reason. Reason says that I'm just fine. The addict in me says to have just one. I know that one is too many and 1000 are not enough, and so I won't smoke.
I'm venting, bitching, whatever you want to call it. I'm like a toddler thinking that I want this so I shall have it. I'm working on weighing the "this" of nonsmoking to exceed the weight of the smoking.
I'm going to sew at 3. I have to work till then (I work at home).
Thanks for listening.
You are feeling what we ALL felt - it's perfectly normal (if that helps any!)
Don't let that smoking desire sit in your head unchallenged! Change your mind's direction. Take slow, deep breaths; count the red/blue/white things in the room; say the alphabet backwards....take a quick, brisk walk. Get outside for five minutes and just look at the clouds, or tree leaves and see what you can discern from the shapes. You have to stay busy and distracted in the early days - it takes effort, but it does get easier as time passes. You just have to work at this right now!
Hang in there!
Nancy