I'm having a really hard time today. Found out last evening that my ex-husband's grandma who I was close to passed away. It wasn't unexpected as she had cancer and was terminal. I haven't told my children yet and I know they are gonna be devastated. I've just been feeling really agitated and had a hard time sleeping last night which makes me even more irritable. I know that smoking isn't the answer and that it won't change anything. I just don't know what to do.